02/12/2026
*Trigger Warning* ‼️
A year ago today we found out we were pregnant with Baby Mak no.2 🥰 I had SO many emotions going through me. For those who don’t know, this was pregnancy no. 3 but we have 2 little boys earth side. I felt like pregnancy loss stole my innocence in a way. The idea that being pregnant somehow meant you’d be having a baby. I was so naive. With every pregnancy, the anxiety screams so loud and I have to remind myself that God is in control. That He didn’t give me the spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. So when I saw the positive test… I was happy, anxious, scared to get excited, terrified beyond belief and silently hopeful 🙏🏾 I’ve had to trust God’s promise yet again. I had to take Him at His word even when things looked tricky.
My husband and I tested together because that’s just what we decided we would do since our loss. It was too devastating for us to have him all surprised and excited, then shortly after, weep like we’ve never done before. With Zeke and Gabi, I was so happy that he was there to hold my hand through the process. To pray before and after testing. It’s been 3 months of us holding our promise in our arms. Our Gabriel Mak! We LOVED having Ezekiel find out with us 🥰
The pregnancy after loss journey is a very delicate one. I thought there was a way to just move past it, that every pregnancy would just magically be without scars as reminders. However, I’ve learned that it stays with you and you just learn to navigate the grief. This doesn’t mean there’s no hope. I move forward with so much gratitude, so much JOY, and so much to look forward to. I move forward as a mom of 3, knowing that 2 things can be true at once. So if you’re navigating pregnancy after loss. I know how you hold your breath for months, and I know the SIGH of relief when you finally give birth and hold your little one in your arms. I see you and we walk together. And if you’re navigating pregnancy loss, I see you. It’s a hard and unimaginable journey. However, you don’t walk alone. We’re NEVER ALONE ❤️