28/09/2022
Happy new moon in Libra badass babes! It’s a long one, so buckle up…(or just scroll on down & skip to the details)
As the seasons shift and we settle into the fall transition, there always seems to be this deep, quiet knowing swirling about in the leaves as they float from the trees. A knowing that the stillness to come in fall and winter brings opportunity to look inward, in order to grow outward. It is a time for internal expansion - for shedding the layers of things we have held onto so tightly - in order to create space for abundance to be cultivated in their empty places. The process of emptying so completely, that you are able to discover the right things to fill you back up. Walking steadfast into the darkness, while trusting that eventually, the right light will find you…
For me, this summer was filled with sweltering grief. Grief for the loss of a space that I worked so hard to build, and that held our community so well. Grief for the gatherings that I envisioned happening for years to come, but no longer would. Grief for the shortcomings I had to face within myself as a business owner and as a person. Grief for the way my brain and body used to be able to function pre-PTSD and pre-Pandemic. Grief for who I was and wanted to be as an instructor. Grief for the loss of other spaces that I just couldn’t quite make work. Grief for the loss of a future that no longer existed or felt tangible.
This summer - for the first time in 13 years - I stopped teaching. I took a break. I allowed myself the space to GRIEVE. I needed to take the time to let go of the idea that The Studio losing a home meant that it “failed;” and that The Studio failing equated to me being a failure. I sat in the mess of my humanity. I took a long, hard look at the parts of myself that I’m not proud of - and tried to figure out how to do things differently next time. I took time to feel truly proud of what we did create together at The Studio in our space on the park. And I learned to trust that letting it go, only creates the opportunity for something even more beautiful to grow in its place.
That time, grief, and process of letting go has lead me to a cozy space two blocks from Lake Nokomis - 2718 E 50th St. to be exact. Starting on October 1st, we will be sharing this beautiful little storefront with Healing Motion Therapies and going back to how I started my journey as a business owner: intimate group classes, private sessions, and so much Pranassage. Not to mention… Free Parking.
Thank you all for your patience with me in this process. Thank you for your kindness, words of encouragement, and being your beautiful, human selves during this turmoil. And while I feel infinitely remorseful about losing our space, not finding us a new home sooner, and not being as communicative or transparent as I would have liked; I also (now) know that sometimes we have to own being human or not our best selves - then just show up anyway. Thank you all for being the light that pulls me out of darkness.
xxo-M