04/07/2026
Some life changes as of late. š£ I went quieter around here for the last two years, not because I didn't have much to say ... but because life was well, throwing all the things my way. I chose to live a lot of it off social media.
Seasons of life that held uncertainty, hope, loss, and grief stretched me to what felt some days, to my max. As someone who went through life thinking, āThe harder you try, itāll happen,ā I had a radical lesson in surrender: even when āyou do everything right,ā things can still go wrong.Ā Pregnancy losses & fertility struggles gave me new understanding of how hope isnāt guaranteed, grief is complex, the reality of fertility is underdiscussed, and how isolating it is when you feel your body is doing the complete opposite of what you wish for.
And in time, last summer, my life started to slowly expand again. We moved through trimesters, appointments, and milestones with cautious optimism. Pregnancy shaped me immensely, learning to surrender, start to trust myself again, and love. Our little girl arrived this February. š©· Having her adds a specialness to our journey, and holding her feels like we can finally take a deep breath after holding our breath for some time. I am overjoyed with gratitude for this pregnancy, this baby, and for the community that has shown up for us in the highest and lowest moments.
Welcome to the world, our girl. You have shaped us in unimaginable ways. We are so filled with love for you & canāt wait to see all you become. My deepest gratitude also goes to .nazem.md at RMA of NY for her support & hope for us as we grew our family. To my other women in various seasons of life - their season of waiting, their season of loss, a season of treatment, or a season of grief or hope I'm holding you in my heart.
This season reminded me that it's okay to step away and look inward when needed. It's okay to set boundaries. It's okay to nurture yourself. It's okay to lean on others. It's okay to not be overly productive. It's okay to celebrate and hope. It's okay to limit your exposure to things. It's okay to preserve your peace. And ... it's okay to show up again, when you're ready to. āØ