07/25/2023
dear heavy stomping feet, rigid torso, and icy stare,
i really see you, oh dear protective one.
something hard or scary happens in the world, usually in our relationships, to activate pain and then you come on strong. i even see how you are trying so, so hard to not let the rageful protective one escape outside of our body, unfurled onto the world, especially onto and within our loved ones.
when you come on strong, though, you can take up so much space in the room. you’re trying so hard to avoid explosion by keeping the pain within, but then like helium the angst stretches a balloon tighter and tighter. you are trying to avoid pain within and within those you love- i have reverence for your intention.
and, it’s not working my sweet. they see, they feel when you are in pain. but not only that, they worry and in your icy silence they have to guess why we are upset. they can feel the energy shift, and they watch. not vigilant yet, but it’s coming. our older boy is so emotionally attuned- a great gift and curse...
(.. shhh, Shame. i see you dear one. by releasing and sharing how we have affected others we give space for change, for revolution. it’s okay, I’ve got this.)
i know it didn’t start with you, you come from generations before us. and remember, the rageful one isn’t with us in the way he has been- we gave him back through generations to heal. i want you to remember that i can keep us safe now. you can rest, or actually, you have told me that you love learning so, so much. you spent so much time blocked up that you want to melt and spread and learn and experience. please remember, your energy gets to be spent doing that now.
love,
me