07/28/2026
The Grief Portal. It is another rite of passage that is so through and tenderizing. Yes I always knew my mom would die but the speed of which this happened was like a car accident. I had no idea. Grief would hit my body so hard. Making me immobile. Bringing a level of heaviness and confusion so that I could not work our function really. It undid all of my threads and Rhythms. Any form of productivity was gone.
The grief linked to other grief’s, like a tether, pulling things from the past forward that I had yet to process. it was so thorough in it’s excavation of me.
Returned where my nightmares from my childhood when my mom left the first time, when I was only three years old. IT confirmed so much of my understanding as a trauma somatic coach. The psyche given opportunity want to complete incomplete autonomic response. Grief linked me to feeling states that were not able to be processed due to my young age.
I hope that all of you when you lose your parents are given the time to grieve and that you’re able to surrender to the physical heaviness, the mystery, the memories, the regrets, the love learning. May you let yourself rest there and not have aversion to it.
Grief and loss are another wisdom boom that we gain in this lifetime. Just like childbirth unless you’ve actually gone through it, you are missing a understanding. Oddly enough grief imbues love with even more potency!
Oh our sweet ancestors want us to live into each moment with presence and gratitude.
🙏🏻 Love you mom