A Hobo's Journey of Self Discovery

A Hobo's Journey of Self Discovery Hi, I'm Tami Ayn Felver, and YES. I am as unique name. Join me on my adventures around the Globe.

07/04/2023

A message for our new pastor the Rev. Tikiko Lesuma

On Sunday morning I sought you out as I had made a gift for you that I wanted to give you. At the time that I presented it to you, I was not aware of the meaning and significance of that simple loaf of bread. However, during the service as I was hanging out in the back of the sanctuary in meditative prayer, the spirit spoke to me and told me why that simple gift of homemade bread was in actuallity so much more than anyone would have ever thought.

I gifted you that nicely wrapped homemade bread that I had created with my own 2 hands (with God gave me) with loving care. This bread was a symbol of the body of Crist Jesus, a symbol that he gave to all of us at the Last Supper. As soon as he said that it represented his body which he would give up for all human so that when the judgement day came, it would save them all. From this moment on the bread cessed to be just a simple loaf of bread and became the imbodiment of Jesus. This lowly loaf of bread was my offerinng to you not only the symbol of communion, but it was at that time and place the offering to you the body of not just me, but the whole of the congergation of Faith United Methodist Church. In the giving of this simple loaf of bread I unknowingly bound you to this church family...this living, breathing body of Christ.The congergation has welcomed you into its fold and wants to share ideas and learn from you and together we can grow this body of faith, as the soil in which you are about to sow these seeds is very fertile and ready to enfold and nurture these seeds of hope and faith and growth and to make sure that those seeds of thought turn into seedlings of hope.

06/29/2023

And so it began with just one little step onto a new and unknown path. I was scared to let go of the guard rail and trust that the Universe knew what it was doing. But I took a deep breath and let go of my past, so I could stand firmly on this new and most definitely difficult path. I stood looking about me getting my bearings...searching into the darkness of the shaded path before me. I was uncertain about this darkness, but I came to realize that it was a welcoming and cool shady darkness not the deep, dark all consuming darkness of the purgatory I had been living in for nearly 2 years.
Since the end of March 2023 I have been on a new medication to help with my bipolar disorder. It has already exceeded my expectations. It has banished my depression and is giving me a clear and functioning mind. One where I'm having to learn how to deal with "normal" mood swings and energy levels. I'm reading and studying about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT). it is a newer method of therapy that helps to train your brain to think and process environmental inputs in a more logical way. It teaches you how to separate irrational and automatic thinking from your thought processes and teaches you how to see more easily the real truth in those things that you have come to believe are truth, because life experiences and traumas.
So, this week I have been working on finding the middle ground. Knowing when to get things done and when to relax. How to better manage my energy levels and I know that just because I have a bundle of excess energy does not mean I'm heading for another manic episode, if I'm able to rationalize these thoughts and energies and to force myself to not try and get everything done at once. To know that things can wait while I relax with a favorite show or movie and crochet. That tomorrow is soon enough some days. I am learning from these ques. I'm learning that if I'm able to consciously take control of my racing thoughts and high energy levels then I'm not heading into or experiencing a manic episode.
I'm not to the point yet where I totally trust my psychiatrist or the medication. I'm a the "proof is in the pudding" kind of person, so I will believe these claims when I see and experience the results for myself.

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