10/07/2023
What Patience Looks Like: Curiosity and Trust.
Recently I went on a hike on a mesa near my home to do my morning yoga routine. I was feeling impatient, and anxious about something I was trying to plan because the details weren’t coming together. As I walked, some of the tension I felt eased up, but I didn’t really feel like doing yoga when I got to my destination. I went through the flow, trying to breathe in peace and to be present, appreciating the surroundings and using my senses fully. I finished the flow, and though I felt more calm, I still felt impatient, and unsettled about the situation.
I began a meditation technique I learned from the HeartMath institute called “Freeze Frame.” I got my heart and brain in tune, or in coherence, and these thoughts flowed as a question/answer session between my heart and brain I guess you could say:
“How am I feeling?” Anxious. “How do I want to feel?” Patient. “What does patience feel like?” Peace. Ease. “How could you feel more peace and ease?” I could be more curious, and sit with curiosity as the plan works itself out. I could enjoy curiosity. I could let go of wanting to control, and trust that it will work out for the best. How do I shift from being anxious? “Be curious! Let go of the need to control! Trust! Trust that everything will eventually work out for the best. Trust that if this is meant to be, God will help out. Focus on feeling peace.”
This was a great new insight to me: Shift away from impatience using curiosity and trust! After sitting with these thoughts for a while, I really felt peace. I’ve been able to sustain that peace over the past several weeks, by revisiting these ideas as I’ve been waiting. I’m happy to say that things are finally coming together for the project I’m planning. This is going to be my “go-to” method of dealing with waiting and impatience in the future. I hope that by sharing I might help you too!