04/13/2026
Last update on this because I can’t anymore wins.
I am exhausted
thank you for everybody who’s reached out to me -you have no idea how much I needed that thank you
I don’t wanna talk anymore, talk about it or this on socials,
I hate being around me right now.
I don’t look the way I used to.
I’m not taking care of myself.
i’m not running. I’m not smiling. I’m not sleeping. Not eating healthy. Not living.
I literally don’t know who I am anymore.
I’ve left LA before- but for adventures- you’ve been my home- base. One of the loves of my life.
I didn’t leave you for an adventure. I left you because of a tragedy
The squatter has destroyed me.
I thought I was stronger than this -but what do we know of strength until defeat?
LA- it’s woven into my dna.
My squatter knew I left because it was an emergency. She took my vulnerability and used it to support her lifestyle of squatting as her job. It’s her livelihood.
Flash Shelton
This is the biggest mistake and only regret of my life -
renting out a place after the fires so that I could survive.
I’m sorry the fires happen.
I’m sorry I feared losing my job.
I’m sorry I trusted.
I’m sorry to find someone to cover my rent while I was just trying to live.
I’m sorry for my friends for listening to this too freeking long.
I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry.
I have all the fight, but no more money.
It’s all gone, but just like the car accident 8/23-I almost died. Shorty was paralyzed
He did not have insurance- illegal in LA but no one cares- no ticket or detention- he went home and had dinner with his family and never paid a dime -I had 26k of debt from medical, car, loss of income-
he made me destitute and got off- 8 witnesses- 2 other cars damaged- no license revoked. Nothing. We paid.
At least I had help from a gofundme Reanna Leigh Livingston
people love to take and will keep on taking…
I teach this in Yoga -non attachment, but it’s really hard when it’s stolen from you.
my mom likes to say no good deed…. You know the rest
My mom is always right. Mary Coughlin Searle always right�