The Trauma Queens

09/29/2026

You can’t love ANYONE the way they deserve if you don’t first learn how to love yourself!! Toxic relationships disappear after you can learn that!

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07/21/2026

Set Myself Free
Written by: Kelsey Kennedy and Joe Sins
Singer: Kristin Sins

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07/08/2026

Is it just us, or have any of you ever felt like something was really wrong with you but you couldn’t figure out what it was until whatever coping mechanism you were doing landed you at rock bottom?

My friend Thomas and I will be doing a TikTok Live on Thursday July 9th, 6pm CST .trauma.queens

Both of us are addicts in recovery.
Both of us had a great deal of trauma.
Both of us have a great sense of humor.
Both of us have serious medical issues.

We want to tell you our stories and talk about why everything that I mentioned above is connected. Childhood trauma is the leading cause of addiction. We aren’t here for pats on the back. We want to do this to help those who are suffering from any addiction, mental illness, cPTSD, etc., as well as help those who love someone who is suffering. This is going to be a heavy topic. But I promise you that if anything I mentioned above is happening or happened in your life or the life of someone you love, it will all start to make more sense. While we have a lot in common, our stories are very different!! I truly believe that anyone suffering will be able to find, not only actual knowledge about why you are the way you are, but it will also help you learn other steps you can take on your own or maybe even give someone the motivation to go to treatment!

07/03/2026

Judgement
Written by: Kelsey Kennedy
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06/23/2026

Read that one more time.
Again, out loud.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!!!
I am always one message, text or call away whether I know you or not!!

Walls
I know a girl who laughs too loud
Just so nobody hears her breakin’.
Says she’s fine every single time
Cause she’s tired of explaining.
I know a boy who hides his tears
Behind jokes and cigarette smoke.
Acts like nothing hurts at all
Cause nobody taught him hope.
And maybe that’s the saddest thing
How people learn to live half numb.
Smilin’ in a crowded room
While secretly wishin’ someone would come.

Cause everybody’s fighting battles
They don’t know how to say out loud.
Just because no one else sees it
Don’t mean their head ain’t screamin’ out!
So if you’re barely hanging on tonight
Please hold on a little longer.
Cause the world has enough people surviving
What it really needs…
Is people healing and thriving!

If walls could talk
Oh, the stories they would tell.
About the hearts that almost gave up
But somehow made it through hell.
About the nights we cried alone
Thinking nobody cared.
About the pain we learned to carry
Just because it was there.
And maybe we’re all a little broken
Trying to look strong.
But broken doesn’t mean worthless
It just means life’s been hard too long.

There’s a mother working double shifts
Tryna keep the lights turned on.
There’s a father scared to say “I love you”
Cause his own dad never did at all.
There’s a teenager staring in the mirror
Hating everything they see.
Not realizing the world would change
If they could see themselves honestly.
And there’s people walking around every day
Smiling with shattered hearts.

Cause the truth is…
Some of the kindest souls
Were torn apart from the start…

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04/11/2025

I am sure there are some of you that are not going to agree with me, but I just want to share this anyway.

Pain, anger, trauma… it all travels down through our family’s tree. And what really sucks is that most of the time, us as humans do not want to feel or deal with that pain, so we continue passing it down… To our kids, to our family… and we end up leaving it to them because we don’t want to deal with it or feel it. What you don’t understand is that the thing with pain and trauma is that the only way to fix it is to let yourself FEEL it. And hopefully at some point, a unique individual, a human, maybe YOU, comes along…. And you are tired of it and you want to end the cycle. You want to break your family’s traditional tree cycle of trauma. You want to stop passing it down.

So you feel the pain, because it is the only way to heal from the pain. It might label you as the black sheep, the one with anxiety and depression…. But you have to remember that YOU are the one with the superpowers, because you can feel it, you are allowing yourself to feel it. And healing may mean cutting off certain people from your life, maybe even from your family. But you have to do what you have to do so that you can break the vicious cycle of trauma that leads to mental health disorders because you don’t want your children to have to feel what you are feeling.

It is honestly the hardest thing that anyone will ever attempt to do.

I have 7 1/2 years sober, 7 1/2 years of therapy, 7 1/2 years of seeing an addiction specialist, 7 1/2 years of making myself feel the pain, 7 1/2 years of panic attacks, 7 1/2 years of having days where I can’t get out of bed, 7 1/2 years for the pain takes all of the air out of my chest, and I feel like I can’t take another step, 7 1/2 years without being able to numb it away.

It would be so much easier if I could just shoot some oxy or some he**in and numb the pain again. So much easier.

Numbing it away, working it away, running it away, using any and everything, from substances to keeping myself as busy as I possibly can to not have to feel it because it hurts so much.

But there is a 16 year-old boy watching me. Learning from me. Loving me, despite my faults and my anxiety and my depression, and I would rather feel this pain ever every single day to help break this cycle for him instead of refusing to feel it and deal with it and cope with it And heal from it so that he can have a better life.

So no, I am not always OK. I do not always have a tight grip on being able to do all the things that an average person can. So some days, I stay in bed and I let myself rest. Some days I shut off my phone or refuse to look at it because I can’t deal with anyone else’s problems at that moment aside from my own mental health. But I keep going. I keep trying. I keep feeling so that I can keep dealing to help me keep healing.

It’s OK to not always be OK. And don’t let any judgmental as***le tell you otherwise. You cannot take care of the people that you love the way they need to be taken care of if you cannot take care of yourself first.

03/20/2025

The Truth That Is So Hard To Really Talk About…

Demons growing louder
Chest tightening
Teeth and fists clenching
Fear taking over
The phone weighing a million pounds
Praying so hard but feeling unheard
Mind racing
Heart pounding
Panic consuming you
Thinking of only one thing

Oxy (enter drug of choice here _______)

For those of you who aren’t addicts or alcoholics, you will never understand what a craving will do. How it will bring you to your knees. How your every thought is consumed with needing a fix so you don’t have to feel this way anymore. I have never in my life experienced anything more intense or unrelenting than a craving!

Now for some more truth:
It does not matter how long you have been sober, no amount of time will make you immune. We will have this disease in our hearts and our minds for the rest of our lives!

My 7.5 years doesn’t really mean jack s**t if I don’t recognize how easily it could all be gone in an instant!

I do all the right things:
I surrender myself to God daily
I meditate daily
I read daily
I do my 12 step work daily
I talk to my sponsor weekly
I go to meetings
I journal excessively
I work on my character defects
I know the consequences of what will happen if I relapse- jail, institution, or death (most likely death)

My addiction didn’t start as a “Choice”…. It started with a vehicle accident fracturing all my cervical vertebrae and getting a prescription for my pain. I’ve also broken my tailbone 3 times. I now have degenerative disc disease and spondylosis in my cervical and lumbar spine. I am in pain between a 5 to a 10 at all times.

My back went out a few weeks ago and my pain has been a 10 out of 10 every single day, and let me tell ya, aleve doesn’t do much for pain that intense and debilitating. Every single day has been a constant struggle of doing everything I can to not use.
At home remedies
C*D cream
Chiropractor every other day
Massage
Cupping
Decompression

Every single thing except for going to a Doctor, because they will immediately take scans, and those scans will show how bad my back is, and they are going to offer me the only treatment available aside from getting rods in my neck:

Oxy

Thankfully I’m strong enough and smart enough to know that if they offer it, there might be a craving happening right then making it too hard to turn down.

So I do my best to keep going. I do my best to keep fighting. And all addicts experience cravings, but when you are a chronic pain patient and a legal prescription is what started your addiction (because 1 took the physical pain away, but two took the emotional pain and trauma away), you are just fu**ed. Praying that your strength doesn’t waver, EVERY SINGLE DAY!!

But it really doesn’t matter whether your addiction was brought on by a legal prescription or trying alcohol for the first time because everybody else drinks, or being drunk at a party and trying co***ne for the first time because everyone else is doing it. The substance doesn’t matter when you have the disease of addiction. It is always present. And it is always getting stronger. And no matter how much sober time you have, that beast is still awake and alive inside you.

So please don’t hesitate when you feel your chest tightening and your fist clenching and you’re craving and addiction telling you that it’s OK, call me! Message me! Know that there is somebody who understands! I will be right here fighting beside you every single day! Every. Single. Day.

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