Support group meetings are held in-person and virtually through out each month in Jacksonville and surrounding areas. I was with my husband for 13 years and had what I considered a perfect marriage. We loved each other so much and loved being together. He had a smile that made anyone feel good. He loved to sing and became a Karaoke DJ. He was a General Contractor by trade and could build a house from the ground up blindfolded. Jimmy did not have a selfish bone in his body. A lot of his depression stemmed from feeling like he wasn't doing enough. I came home and found him hanging. My world ended that day. He was a strong man, physically, spiritually and emotionally. He would never do this. I was sure I was having a serious bad dream. The death of a loved one is always tragic but suicide triples that tragedy. Too many unanswered questions and so much confusion. We deal with a tremendous amount of shame, blame and guilt. Had I known he was ever thinking of ending his life, I would have done everything in my power to get him the help he needed. It was a huge shock to me and anyone that knew him. He always survived and picked himself up when he was down. Coping with this is a struggle.
