05/21/2026
Day 472: Today has been an emotional day for me. Carson should have graduated kindergarten today. We should be celebrating him going on to 1st grade next school year and being at the same school as his big brother. (His brother will be going into 5th grade next year, so this was going to be the only year they’d be together.) Instead Carson will be returning to kindergarten in the Fall. After he was diagnosed I already made the decision to hold him back.
He only went this year to get to some type of normalcy and structure.
I didn’t realize it was going to be so emotional for the both of us. Carson coming home singing his graduation songs asking when his graduation was. Begging me to go on to 1st grade. Telling me he will work hard over the summer, because he wants to move on with his friends. Then me receiving countless emails and hearing announcements over the intercom about a graduation he would not be attending. I just hope and pray next year is his time to shine. I pray he whoops cancer and gets to graduate next year. I hope he gets the chance…..Next year I want him to celebrate completing kindergarten and ringing the bell. Gotta speak it into existence.
Since his class had graduation tonight they just did a Google meet for awards during school. I am still so proud of the growth he has made, only being in school for 2 1/2 months this year.
