08/09/2026
I live with a nervous system that stays on high alert. I have had to.
This morning I got up at 4 a.m. to cover a sick call. After work I pulled over safely on a side street to pick up my grandson. As I started to step out of the car, my Toyota Grand Highlander chimed: “Be aware of oncoming traffic.”
That alert saved me.
An SUV was coming from behind me at about 35 mph with its back door wide open. It would have hit me. I moved just in time!
A 35 mph impact can break bones or worse. I know life can change in a moment. I’m still here. Unhurt. And shaken.
I’m sharing this because many of us who have survived trauma carry bodies that remain braced for the next threat, whether that threat comes from outside or from the weight we carry inside. Moments like this can light up old wiring. The body remembers danger even when the present moment is trying to be ordinary.
What mattered today was the interruption: a quiet alert, a second of hesitation, the chance to step out of harm’s way, despite being tired. Sometimes the thing that keeps us here is small and almost invisible. A warning. A pause. A person. A reason that arrives at the exact right time.
If you are in a place where life feels precarious…where the next moment could tip either way, please know the outcome is not fixed. Support exists. Safety can be rebuilt in small, steady steps. You do not have to hold the intensity alone.
I’m grateful to still be here today. And I’m holding space for anyone whose nervous system is also tired from staying ready.
If you’re struggling, reach out. You matter.