Innerwellnessict

09/14/2026

Sitting with a praying mantis today, with stillness and patience.

09/10/2026

Reiki is not a box. It is a door.

What if Reiki isn’t one path?

I have studied more than 275 Reiki systems and around 200 other energy systems.

And one of the biggest things that has taught me is this:

They don’t all do the same thing.

Some systems are ladders. They take you from one level of understanding into another.

Some are journeys. You move through them and discover something about yourself along the way.

Some are healing modalities.

Some feel like energetic or cosmic boosts that temporarily open your awareness wider.

Some are informational. They give you a different map for understanding energy.

Some introduce you to an entirely different philosophy.

And some are simply doorways.

You walk through them, integrate what they have to teach you, and suddenly you can see another door that you couldn’t see before.

This is the part of Reiki and energy work that I don’t think we talk about enough.

We can become so focused on the rules, the lineage, the traditions, the symbols and doing a system the “right” way that we forget to ask:

What is this system actually opening in me?

Usui Reiki can be a beautiful foundation.

But Reiki doesn’t end there.

After studying hundreds of systems, I’ve realized I don’t want to collect systems just to say I know them.

I want to understand what each one opens.

What does it teach me?

What does it change in the way I experience myself?

What happens when I integrate it?

What becomes available afterward?

Because maybe these systems aren’t boxes we’re supposed to live inside.

Maybe they’re doors.

And once you’ve walked through enough doors, you start realizing how enormous the house actually is.

09/09/2026

To smell, hear, feel the rain on my skin as it cleanses these energies and cycles that are closing today on the 9/9 portal is simply perfection.
I am playing in the rain , enjoying the thunder, and I am thankful for this time and space.

09/07/2026

I’ve been thinking about something lately.

We have access to more information about ourselves than any generation before us, and yet information doesn’t seem to be the thing we’re missing.

We know the terminology.
We know about patterns.
We know about triggers.
We know about nervous system regulation.
We know about trauma.
We know about energy.
We know about boundaries.
We know about consciousness.
We know how to search for another explanation when something in our lives isn’t working.

And maybe that’s where something interesting is happening.

Knowing what is happening and actually changing how we experience ourselves are two completely different things.

You can recognize a pattern and still repeat it.

You can understand why you react a certain way and still feel the reaction move through your body before you can stop it.

You can know exactly what you “should” do and discover that some deeper part of you is still operating from an entirely different set of instructions.

That space fascinates me.

Because there comes a point when more information isn’t necessarily the answer.

There comes a point when we have to experience ourselves differently.

And that can create a strange space.

You’re no longer completely operating from who you were.

But you haven’t fully discovered what life looks like from the other side of it either.

The old reactions start feeling different.
Certain relationships shift.
Things that once held enormous importance begin losing their grip.
You catch yourself inside patterns you once couldn’t even see.
Your body starts telling you things your mind hasn’t put into words yet.

And suddenly the question changes.

It’s no longer only:

“Why am I like this?”

It becomes:

“Now that I can see it, what do I do with it?”

Maybe this is where our conversations around transformation need to go next.

Not another person with all the answers.

Not another endless stream of information.

But spaces where we can actually experience what happens when the body, nervous system, subconscious, energy and conscious awareness are allowed into the same conversation.

Where something can be noticed before we immediately try to fix it.

Where a pattern can become visible without becoming another identity.

Where the body gets a voice.

Where energy can move.

Where conversation can uncover something.

Where we can experience a shift instead of simply understanding the concept of one.

Because knowing yourself intellectually and actually living differently inside yourself are not the same thing.

And maybe that’s one of the most interesting places we can explore right now:

What happens after awareness?

We’ve spent a lot of time learning how to see the pattern.

Now what happens when we’re ready to step outside of it?

08/31/2026

You are not just speaking for yourself. You are speaking for the grandmothers who swallowed their truth because survival required silence, for the women who learned to make their voices small in rooms that would not hold them, for the younger versions of yourself who walked through corruption and imbalance without language for what was happening.

When you raise your voice now, it is not chaos. It is anchored continuity. It is the sound of memory returning to the body. It is the reclamation of something that was never meant to be surrendered.

And make no mistake, this is labor. It costs something to refuse silence. It costs something to stand steady when it would be easier to comply. Your body knows the risk. It remembers the punishments written into bloodlines. The fear does not disappear. You move anyway. This work is not decorative. It is defiance in motion.

Scream not from frenzy, but from steadiness. Scream with your feet planted in the ground your ancestors never got to claim. Scream so that the girls coming after you will not have to wonder where in history they lost their voice.

And one day, a woman you will never meet will stand in a room and speak without apology, not knowing your name but living inside the freedom you helped carve.

That is how legacy moves.

08/27/2026

Wisdom from a Crane today. Pause stillness patience trusting and knowing.

08/26/2026

THE PATH OF RETURN

There comes a moment when the soul grows tired of wandering through borrowed identities and inherited illusions. A silent remembrance begins to stir—not as a thought, but as a knowing. It does not arrive loudly. It arrives like dawn, dissolving darkness without argument.
You were never separate from the Source. You only descended into density to experience contrast, to forget temporarily so that remembrance could become conscious. This forgetting was not a punishment—it was part of the unfolding.
The ascent is not about becoming something new. It is about shedding what was never truly you. Every fear released, every illusion seen through, every attachment surrendered—these are the steps of your return.
You begin to realize that what you were searching for was never ahead of you, but beneath the noise of the mind. Beneath the conditioning. Beneath the illusion of limitation.
There is a presence within you that has never been wounded, never been broken, never been lost. It has only been waiting for your awareness to return to it.
This is the awakening.
Not the acquisition of power, but the remembrance of essence.
Not the discovery of something external, but the recognition of what has always lived within you.
You are not becoming whole.
You are remembering that you have always been whole.

08/24/2026

Essentially, your entire life is a hero's journey. It's a mythic epic journey. If you can put that individual struggle in this mythic context, it changes your entire experience of working with this part of you.

08/23/2026

Come with me as I get ready for a transformational session and the end after it was done 💜💙💜

08/22/2026