20/01/2023
NIRVANA – A STATE OF MIND (please leave some comments)
We all get fu**ed hard finding some senses of meaning in our lives. Some got it via fame, money, the recognition of others… One way or another, it’s some dopamine and whatnot hormones that gave us the contentment. An American psychologist created the hierarchy of needs which I used to use as a guide to the satisfaction. The highest level on Maslow’s table is self-actualization. However, it is later be abused by the modern world, so we chase things we don’t need to be satisfied, that’s the way the capitalists get fu***ng rich, and we still yet to actualize ourselves.
I read a lot of philosophy and religion books to find an ideology exclusively for me, since I realize the true happiness and satisfaction cannot be found outside of myself. Anyway, I haven’t found it until I go out to the world and see things. I met people who got it all and who got nothing, who is flying high and who just got out of prison. Experiences bring me sweetness, bitterness, satiety and hunger… Until then, I reviewed the wise words from philosophers and found it true af. However, reading books before experiencing is still a good method. Without the right things I learned from books, I would surely get lost on my way of life and maybe now in prison or being a ju**ie.
Now that I don’t need to be recognized, don’t need to be rich, don’t need to be handsome, don’t need my good deeds to be known by others (it still be good things tbh)… Now, I’m awake. I can listen to music on a bus and feel the artists as well as the audiophile set up, I can drink coffee from small vendors and find it as good as specialty coffee shops…
Only doing the right things and self-acknowledgment bring you true satisfaction. Read more books, standing on the shoulders of giants widen your view.
Believe me,
C.
P/s: I don’t want to write those words in Vietnamese since I don’t want a language to be the limitation of my thoughts. However, only the poems and songs in Vietnamese can come deep into my soul.
"Lớn để mà còn biết cái sự khác biệt giữa mình và "cái tôi".
Lớn để biết mình sai rồi, nhưng mà lạc lối không phải là cái tội.
Lớn vì cái nhận thức và xin sự thay đổi.
Còn sống là vẫn còn may rồi, số phận tăng đôi, thắng thua từ tay thôi."
