31/08/2026
The village 10k went past my garden on Saturday, and I genuinely don’t know whether to be horrified at myself for sticking with the classic “Oh I could never do a 10k”……or proud of myself for being confident enough to just be me and not sign up for something I truly didn’t want to do.
I’d already done my own wee run earlier (all by my lonesome), because running with actual humans, gives me the fear. So instead I stood in my garden with my coffee, clapping and cheering everyone on like a supportive wee goblin who knows her limits.
And the runners were incredible. Every single one of them. Different paces, different styles, but all absolutely smashing it. It was really inspiring to watch.
And this is exactly the kind of thing I see in hypnotherapy all the time — that moment where you’re not sure if you’re avoiding something because you’re scared… or because you simply don’t want it.
Confidence isn’t always about doing the big scary thing. Sometimes it’s about knowing yourself well enough to say, “That’s not for me,” without guilt, shame, or the imaginary Greek chorus of critics in your head.
So today I’m choosing proud‑horrified, horrified‑proud, and absolutely committed to my tradition of enthusiastic lurking.
Maybe next year I’ll join in. Or maybe I’ll keep helping other people feel brave while perfecting my waving technique. Both are valid life choices (although one involves less puffing & panting).