06/17/2023
I experienced the best workout I've had in two years today.
When I was done my eyes began to water.
It wasn't the pain or the fatigue, but the experience of choosing myself for the first time in so long that was overwhelming.
I am with my babies all day and it is nothing short of a blessing to be home with them.
It is also incredibly consuming and leaves little time unaccounted for.
I have found that the hardest part about being a parent can be preserving your humanity.
The pressure to be an exceptional parent can leave you an under nourished individual.
The feeling you have when you leave your children with other people to create space for your individual needs can be ridden with .
I was reminded that relearning to choose myself after having children is central to my joy.
I can not fear inconveniencing others in the process of preserving myself.
I can not shrink my needs even for the children as they require the healthiest and happiest version of me.
So proud of myself and grateful for my husband for inviting me.
I needed that permission.