06/09/2026
This was me during my corporate years.❤️
From the outside, my life looked great and made sense, and that was partly why it took me so long to admit that something inside me no longer did.
I’ve been thinking about how much guilt women can feel when they start questioning a life that is, by most measures, good.
I remember this from my own corporate years.
There wasn’t necessarily one specific thing I could point at and say:
There. That’s the problem.
In some ways, that made it harder, because what do you do when your life works, but something about it no longer feels quite right?
You tell yourself to be grateful.
You remind yourself how hard you worked to get here.
You think about the people who would love to have what you have.
You wonder whether you are just being difficult, restless, or impossible to please.
Through all of this, one thought keeps returning:
I don’t know if I want this anymore.
I think women need far more permission to hold two things at once.
I can appreciate this life.
And
I can question whether it still fits me.
I can love what I’ve created.
And
I can want something different now.
I can be grateful.
And
I can still change.
Maybe it's not about asking: “What’s wrong with my life?”
Maybe it’s: “What has changed in me?”
It took me years to understand that distinction.
I spent 22 years in corporate before eventually realising there was nothing inherently wrong with me.
I had become disconnected from myself.
I’ve written the full story because I know there are women living very good lives while quietly wondering why something still feels like it's missing.
Read: https://freespiritwellness.co.za/there-was-nothing-wrong-with-me/
