27/10/2026
When is pushing through worth it?
My one rule going into Equinox was not to break myself. I had other races planned and didn't want a 24-hour event to leave me with an injury that stopped me running for weeks or months afterwards.
For most of the race, I actually did a pretty good job of sticking to that. I listened to my body, changed my gait, walked the hills and adapted whenever something started hurting.
Then I got to the final 50km.
By that point I was leading the women's race, and suddenly the rule I'd set myself before the race became much harder to stick to. I knew second place was still moving behind me and that if I stopped for too long, I could potentially lose the win.
But looking back, it wasn't only about winning. There was definitely some pride involved too.
I'd spent the night putting in consistent lap times and I was proud of that. I'd worked my way, unknowingly, up the leaderboard after not even being on the first page in the first six hours. After doing that for so long, I didn't want to suddenly slow down dramatically and feel as though I'd blown up at the end.
Whether anyone else would actually have thought that probably didn't matter apparently, I cared enough for all of them. π
Pride can be useful in sport. It can make you dig in when things get difficult and discover you're capable of more than you thought. But it can also make it harder to make the sensible decision when your body is telling you to back off.
Somewhere in those final 50km, holding onto the win and not wanting to feel like I'd blown up became more important than my original rule of "don't break yourself."
So, I kept going.
And there was a consequence. Immediately afterwards my Achilles was extremely swollen I couldn't get a shoe on for a week (hence the crocs in clinic!), I could barely manage stairs, getting in and out of a chair was an event in itself and I was, quite frankly, more than a little broken.
It's made me think a lot about a question runners ask us in clinic all the time:
"Can I still do my race?"
Often there isn't a simple yes or no answer.
You might be carrying a niggle and still be physically capable of getting around. But that's not quite the same question as whether doing it is worth the risk.
π How important is this particular race to you?
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What's coming up afterwards?
β οΈ What happens if the niggle gets significantly worse?
β³ Are you prepared to sacrifice a few weeks or months of running for today's finish line?
π― Is this the event you've spent months training for, or could you defer it and protect a bigger goal further down the line?
Sometimes the decision might be to start, knowing you may need to change the plan or stop if things deteriorate. Other times the sensible decision might be not to start at all.
There's also a big difference between managing some discomfort while continuing to move well and pushing on while your gait is changing significantly and other areas are starting to take the load.
That's why I don't think "never push through pain" or "just tough it out" are particularly useful rules on their own. Context matters.
At Equinox, I eventually chose the result in front of me. The win and as many laps as I could manage and, if I'm being completely truthful, probably my pride as well, became worth taking more risk than I'd intended when I started.
Would I make exactly the same decision if I had an important race in the following weeks? Probably not.
And that's the point.
The same symptom in the same runner might lead to a completely different decision depending on what that runner is trying to achieve and what they're prepared to risk.
Know your body, understand the potential consequences and think about the bigger picture rather than just the finish line directly in front of you.
Sometimes you decide the goal in front of you is worth the risk. Sometimes the bigger goal means it isn't.
The important thing is understanding the decision you're making and the potential consequences of making it.
π₯ Safe to say, the βdonβt break yourselfβ plan hadn't gone entirely to planβ¦ π