17/09/2026
The start of your healing journey no one really talks about……
I feel like a few of you may need to hear this
Maybe you’re on your own healing journey, at the beginning or been trying for a while but if you’re honest, you’re getting a little tired.
You’ve been trying.
Trying to understand yourself.
Trying to let go.
Trying to heal old wounds.
Trying to stop overthinking.
Trying to set boundaries.
Trying to feel lighter.
Maybe you’ve had Reiki, gone to a sound bath, meditated, journalled, cried, talked, rested, reflected…
and yet there are still days when you think,
“Why am I still feeling like this?”
“Shouldn’t I be further along by now?”
“Am I actually healing?”
Maybe sometimes you even wonder if any of it is working or real.
I want you to know something…
I’ve felt that too.
And one of the biggest things I’ve come to understand through my own journey is that healing doesn’t always feel like healing, it’s actually quite bloody hard
Sometimes it just feels like you’re living your life.
You have a beautiful session where you feel lighter, connected and calm…
and then you go home and life carries on.
The washing still needs doing.
The children still need you.
People still say things that upset you.
You still have difficult days.
You still get frustrated.
You still question things.
You still have moments where old emotions come rushing back and you think,
“I thought I’d dealt with this.”
But maybe you haven’t failed.
Maybe you’re simply being shown another layer.
Because healing isn’t always about removing something completely.
Sometimes it’s about changing your relationship with it.
Learning to notice it.
Learning to understand where it comes from.
Learning to sit with it rather than run from it.
Learning that you can feel something without allowing it to consume you.
And sometimes the shift is so gentle that you don’t notice it happening.
Until one day…
something happens.
Something that would once have knocked you sideways.
Something that would have had you overthinking for days.
Something that would have made you abandon your boundaries, blame yourself or carry someone else’s emotions as though they were yours.
But this time… (you won’t notice straight away)
you respond differently.
Maybe you pause.
Maybe you say no.
Maybe you walk away.
Maybe you don’t react.
Maybe you recognise the pattern.
Maybe you simply feel it and allow it to pass.
And afterwards, maybe not straight after but you sit there thinking,
“Wow… I would never have handled that like that before.”
That moment matters.
That’s healing too.
And sometimes, much later, you might look back at something that once hurt deeply and suddenly understand why it became part of your journey.
You might have that little moment where something inside you feels warm…
and you smile.
Because suddenly it makes sense.
“That’s what that taught me.”
“That’s what I needed to learn.”
“That changed me.”
And perhaps that is one of the most beautiful parts of healing.
Not that the past disappears.
But that you begin to see it differently.
You begin to see yourself differently.
You realise you’ve healed from things you didn’t even know you were carrying.
Because sometimes we begin healing because of one particular thing…
but once we start looking within, we realise it was never just about that one thing.
There were layers underneath.
Old experiences.
Old emotions.
Old beliefs.
Old ways of protecting ourselves.
Things we had simply learnt to live with.
And through gently creating space for ourselves through energy, Reiki, sound, meditation, stillness, nature, reflection, whatever feels right for us we can begin to notice those layers.
Not because we are broken.
But because we are finally giving ourselves permission to listen.
And if you’re reading this thinking,
“But I’m still struggling.”
I want you to know…
so am I.
I’m still healing.
I’m still noticing things about myself.
I’m still learning.
I still question things.
I still get fed up.
I still have days where I think,
“Seriously? Another lesson?”
I don’t believe we ever completely heal.
I think we continue to grow, evolve, learn and uncover new parts of ourselves throughout our lives.
But I do believe it gets easier.
Not necessarily because life gets easier…
but because we become better at moving through it.
We become more aware.
More compassionate towards ourselves.
More able to recognise what belongs to us and what doesn’t.
More able to come back to ourselves when life pulls us away.
So please don’t look at where you are today and decide that you’re not healing because you’re not where you want to be yet.
You don’t know what is quietly shifting beneath the surface.
You don’t know what you will understand six months from now.
You don’t know what version of yourself you are slowly becoming.
And you don’t have to know.
Just keep going.
Keep listening to yourself.
Keep giving yourself the space to feel.
Keep choosing yourself.
Keep taking those little steps, even when they don’t seem significant.
Because one day you may look back and realise…
you were healing all along.
You just couldn’t see it yet. 🤍🌿
And if you’re in that place right now…
where you’re tired, questioning whether it’s working, wondering when you’re finally going to feel okay…
please be gentle with yourself.
You don’t need to have healed everything.
You don’t need to have all the answers.
You don’t need to be the “finished” version of yourself.
You just need to keep going.
One breath.
One moment.
One layer.
One step at a time.
You can do this.
And perhaps one day, when you least expect it, you’ll feel that little warmth in your chest, you’ll smile, and you’ll realise…
“Now I understand why I had to walk this path.” 🤍
With love,
Katie x
