10/06/2026
Knowing the Why more than the Want.
Today I offered my second session of Feeling Deep Rest…..
And no one came…..
Mind whizzed about what to do!!
Should I stay or should I go?
I led the session. I received the blessings…..
My want not fulfilled yet my WHY yelling.
Why these spaces make a difference when you turn up, show up for yourself, for your body, for your emotions, for your desires, and for the rest.
I felt my WANT for others to come feel this for themselves, and my WANT to pack up 15 minutes into the session when no one came…..
But the WHY kept calling….
Why don’t you want deep rest - for you?
Why don’t you want this whole space, to move freely, intuitively, mindfully for you?
Why don’t you want the freedom to sound inwards or out, to stretch, lean, wriggle, roll or stomp as you choose, for you?
Why don’t you want to just lie down, wrap in a blanket and receive the beauty of sound and silence - for you?
What part of me always WANTS this for others any denies it for herself?
Where did I learn that giving these glorious spaces and places was ONLY for others and not for me?
How did I forget that pouring my loving intention into environments with flowers and sensual smells, sound healing and soft lights was a gift in itself - for me also.
Where did I get stuck (once again) in thinking only others matter
Today I received the greatest gift by no one coming, the reminder that I matter. ..and that my WHY matters.
The space was set, it’s open for you and so many others, and it’s there for me too.
I WANT these spaces.
I WANT this stillness, this sensuality, this embodiment, these sounds, this silence , this deep rest
And I will carry on turning up in this space…..with my WHY as the WANT, and the WANT as they WHY
Everything is perfect, and you are so welcome here to join if you also WANT, yet I will be there for my WHY
Much love 💕
Thank you life for this teaching
(As I could have come home muttering miserable things under my breath and giving up at the second hurdle and give up on myself…..the old me would have !! - see these spaces DO work!!!)