26/10/2026
If you've ever sat with your family and felt grief for the woman you used to be — the one who could actually 'feel' these moments instead of just watching them — this one's for you.
You're at the dinner table. Your partner is talking. Your kids are laughing. The people you love most are right there in front of you.
And you're watching it all through glass.
Close enough to see it. Not close enough to feel it.
Your shoulders are up by your ears. Your chest is tight. You're holding your breath without even realizing it.
And somewhere underneath all of that, there's grief.
For the woman who used to show up fully. Who could feel the warmth of these moments — the joy, the love, the laughter — instead of just witnessing them from a distance.
Here's what I need you to know:
That glass? It's not proof you're broken.
It's proof you've lost the connection to yourself.
When you're disconnected from your body — when you've been running on empty for so long that you can't even feel your own breath anymore — your nervous system pulls you out of the moment.
Not to punish you. But because being fully present in your body, fully 'in' these moments, requires connection. And right now, that connection isn't there.
The grief you feel isn't for the moments you're missing.
It's for the version of yourself you can't reach anymore.
But here's the truth:
She's still there.
The woman who could feel all of it — the joy, the love, the laughter, the fullness of being alive in these moments — she never left.
She's just waiting for you to come back to yourself.
And the moment you start reconnecting with your body — learning to breathe all the way down, to feel what you're holding, to be *in* yourself again — the glass comes down.
Not because you pushed through.
But because you found your way back home.
Does the glass ever show up for you?