12/08/2026
For those of you who don’t know the background story, after I gave birth to my twins, I made the decision to have my tubes tied. We have been blessed with four beautiful children, and our family was complete, so I thought I was taking one for the team by having this procedure done. I wasn’t medically informed of the magnitude this decision would have. I didn’t do my own research, and I was very unaware of how it would impact me energetically. I’ve always been a smaller girl, even with all the changes the female body endures through pregnancy, I would soon return to my regular size. However, after having this procedure, it was as though the hormones that impact weight loss had been disrupted.
Despite what the doctors may tell me, I know my body has been affected by this decision. Regardless of all my efforts, I could not move the weight, nothing would budge. It slowly began to impact my mental health until it became unbearable, and I felt a deep detachment from myself. This ultimately affects everything, my energy, how I show up for others, and how I see the world around me. Coupled with ADHD and the way I’d binge eat to cope with frustration or overwhelm, food noise is no joke!
Today I read this letter I wrote for myself at and retreat, which was a pivotal weekend for me. During that retreat I decided to wholeheartedly choose myself, enough anger and regret. More acts of kindness and self-love.
Today, as I read this, I felt a wave of emotion. A part of me recognises the struggle of that past version of Brooke. I can sense the absence of self-love she carried, especially when I look at the abundant love I have for myself today.
I’ve cultivated a beautiful, healthy relationship with food. While I may not have fully achieved my previous goal, I now realise that I might have outgrown it. Perhaps that goal was never about a number on a scale, it was always about a feeling. The feeling of confidence and the wholehearted acceptance of who I am 🤍🙏🏽