12/19/2024
When I went on my last âofficialâ diet back in 2011, I told myself:
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âI will be happy with my body when I get down to 150lbâ, which meant I needed to lose about 10-20 pounds (my body weight fluctuated abruptly because I was stuck in the restrict/binge cycle for a long time).
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I remember thinking obsessively how good my life would be once I reached my target goal.
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So I started cutting calories, tracking every bit of food on myfitnesspal and exercising everyday except for Sundays.
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In less than 3 months, I got down to 150, but guess whatâŠ
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It was no longer enough for me.
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So I pulled out the BMI chart and decided my new target weight was going to be 143 because according to the chart, my height, gender and age, that meant I was right in the middle of my range and since Iâm a gal who strives for balance (oh the ironyâŠ) I decided that was going to be a good number.
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By march 6, 2012 (my bady) guess what, I weighed 143. Happy birthday to me! (oh the ironyâŠ).
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But guess what⊠I had recently got engaged, was about to defend my thesis and getting ready to graduate from my Masters, lost 20+ pounds but guess what, it occurred to me that now maybe I needed to focus on toning my body a bit more, after all, I needed to prep for a destination wedding (oh the ironyâŠ).
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So I lost more weight, thanks to increasing my exercise and since I could barely cut more calories, I decided to cut down a bunch of foods from my diet since I randomly decided they were âtoxicâ.
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I think we all get the point here that things can easily get out of hand.
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And the point in me telling the story is to share an example of how it looks like to go from the innocent goal of wanting to lose a bit of weight to getting into full blown disordered eating scenario.
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Iâm not going to tell you to scratch âI want to lose weightâ from your 2025 list because itâs really none of my business.
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But I will do everything I can to help you stay away from developing a disordered relationship with food and your body.
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Ask for help â€ïž and please never feel ashamed for reaching out.
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Trust me, weâre all in this together.
Love,
P.